Hello BagOfNothing Faithful,
I thought my return to regular blogging would have happened by now, but due to forces beyond my control, it’s been delayed. I first stepped away from blogging to focus on some personal concerns and my family. Then, the person who I used to be able to refer to as “WifeGeeding” for 17 years unexpectedly abandoned me and filed for divorce, despite us never going to a single counseling session or even meeting with our pastor one time. To my surprise, my blog, this little website, was used against me in court. Despite wanting to return to blogging, my attorney advised against it until the divorce is finalized. I was told last month that the divorce should be finalized by the end of October, but here we are, and I’ve probably revealed too much. Once we and then the judge signs the divorce decree, I’ll resume regular blogging. I’m guessing that will be early to mid-November.
Many of you have reached out to me since I first stepped away, and I’m sorry I didn’t take the time to reply. It’s been tough and didn’t know how to reply appropriately. A lot of you have informed me you make this blog a part of your morning routine, and I’m sorry that’s been disrupted for so long. It’s been tough, much tougher than I imagined. A year ago I weighed about 250-255 lbs, this morning I was 188 lbs. None of that weight loss was planned. I used to listen to U2 music to provide me comfort during tough times, but because I have such an emotional connection with the music and associate them with my soon-to-be exspouse, they are just too gut-wrenching to listen to.
As you would imagine, it’s been tough on both BoyGeeding and DaughterGeeding. Keep them in your prayers, as well as their mother and father. In the span of about eight months, I’ve lost my wife, family, and home. And, since my employer has moved me to another area after ten years in the same place, in some ways, I also feel I lost my job as well. Some of you may have seen this coming and some of you may think I deserve everything that happened to me. You may be right. All I can do is learn from the past, make amends, and work on becoming a better version of myself and a better father to my two wonderful children. Easier said than done. I fought like hell to keep my family and our covenant together. Unfortunately, despite my best efforts, that’s not going to happen.
Thank you for your patience, understanding, and loyalty. I hope I can make it up to you.