Bag of Randomness for Wednesday, December 23, 2020


It’s been a while. I’m sorry. I don’t think I’m doing so well. Recently, I had some sort of breakdown. I don’t know what qualifies for a legitimate breakdown, but for about three hours, I bawled on and off. It was rather strange, and I’m still bewildered by the entire experience. The moment I thought it was going to be over, it just started again and I couldn’t control it. I wanted to crawl on the floor and lay in the fetal position, but I couldn’t bring myself to change from how I had already positioned myself sitting on the bed, despite it hurting my back. I can’t remember if I ever bawled like this, especially with the constant wailing. I thought back to the death of each of my parents and my friend who was to be the best man at my wedding. I sobbed quite a bit at all of their passings, but at least I felt I was in control of my emotions and body. I had no idea my body could produce that much snot. After it was all over, I felt exhausted and had a terrible headache. The next day I just couldn’t bring myself to work. All I wanted to do was lie down. I didn’t want to sleep, I just wanted time to think and make time fast forward because time is the only for sure thing that helps with healing. I bawled for a long time that day as well, but it wasn’t as intense and drawn out. Right now I just feel hollow and constantly have knots in my stomach. But at the height of it, I seriously contemplated how does one check him or herself into the hospital and go about seeking some professional help. Then, last night, just playing the board game Life with my family, it struck me again. BoyGeeding first noticed it and stated in a calm voice that I looked frustrated and sad. I had to cut the game short and as soon as I walked in the bedroom I broke down again. It was awkward as they kissed me goodnight, both were teary and worried about me, and it’s hard to assure them that everything is going to be okay when you yourself wonder if you’ll ever get out of this funk.

There’s no single event which triggered this. I think it’s a collection of things which relate to my feelings of inadequacy and insecurity which continues to mount. Right now I think I just really need the support and encouragement of my immediate family. I’ve been wanting to make posts to feel some normalcy in my life, but my mind just gets clouded and frustration builds. So, that’s the reason why I haven’t posted in a while and the reason you won’t see any posts in the near future. I still want to keep this thing up and running, so I’ll be back, I’m just not sure when, maybe mid to late January.

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Bag of Randomness for Wednesday, December 16, 2020

This Is What A Zero-Star Worthy Crash Test Looks Like

If you haven’t heard of the Ka before, you can be forgiven. It’s a teeny little subcompact that, for a while, was only available in Brazil but has since expanded to be sold in India, Mexico, South Africa, Argentina, and Europe. It’s the second-best selling car in Brazil after the Hyundai HB20, but the Latin New Car Assessment Program (NCAP) has a hell of a lot to say about it—and none of it particularly good.

This place sells some nice Disney and Star Wars rugs that don’t look childish or gauche.

Let the dulcet tones of Google’s Blob Opera ring in the holiday season with machine learning

Hark! The blobs sing! Or at least, they do in Google’s latest machine learning experiment, the awe-inspiring Blob Opera, which will see a chorus of four adorable, colorful blobs serenade you with spine-tingling operatic music. Drag a blob up or down, and you’ll change what pitch they sing in; drag them from side to side, and you’ll change the vowel sound. Each blob will also harmonize with the others, in what can only be described as magical.

Note: But the best part of the Blob Opera isn’t just the lovely harmonies or adorable characters — it’s the “holiday surprise” that’s activated by clicking the Christmas tree icons, which will give you the option to let the blobs sing any number of popular Christmas carols.

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Bag of Randomness for Tuesday, December 15, 2020

It feels odd walking into the grocery store and not being annoyed by the ringing of the Salvation Army bell.

Questioning if Jill Biden should include “Dr.” in front of her name is almost equivalent to those who were outraged at Obama’s tan suit. Ah, it’s almost like old times.

Montana reports 0 new COVID-19 cases due to system update

Disney World is going to stop digitally adding masks to people who don’t have them in their on-ride pictures, according to a report from WDW News Today.

Google pushes return to office to September and will test flexible work week

Quintet, Kansas – Deadliest place in America: They shrugged off the pandemic, then their family and friends started dying

As of Thursday, coronavirus has killed a higher percentage of Gove County residents than any other county in the United States: One out of every 132 people has died.

In case you ever wondered why the Michelin Man is white:

Prior to 1912, tires were either grey-white or had a light translucent beige hue. Carbon was subsequently added to the rubber formula as a preservative and a strengthener.

The timing of these two news stories is interesting. I wonder why Briles decided for the announcement to be made today and I have a feeling he’s sadly going to get another shot at college ball. Liberty would be the perfect place, they have no morals and the former Baylor AD is there.

Baylor Bears officials scheduled to appear before NCAA Committee on Infractions over sexual assault scandal

Former Baylor coach Art Briles resigns from Texas high school job after two seasons

Sometimes people ask me what I have against Baylor, which I find puzzling. As if the sexual assault scandal and the Dave Bliss scandal happening at a Christian university aren’t enough. Christians proudly state they are set apart and live to a higher standard, I simply don’t see this at this Christian university. Forgive me for having some morals and wanting a Christian university to have high standards. Heck, I didn’t even mention Ken Starr. I expect the same from my alma maters. I miss the old Baylor.

I have no idea if he’s related to the competitive food eater.

How a Homeless High School Dropout Became CEO of a $1 Billion CompanyTaihei Kobayashi has gone from sleeping on the streets of Tokyo to heading a technology startup whose market value topped $1 billion.

FDA approves genetically engineered pigs

The Food and Drug Administration has approved genetically engineered pigs for use in food and medical products. The pigs, developed by medical company Revivicor, could be used in the production of drugs, to provide organs and tissues for transplants, and to produce meat that’s safe to eat for people with meat allergies.

In case you ever wondered how a court reporter does his or her job explained in one minute.

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Bag of Randomness for December 14, 2020

WifeGeeding is COVID-19 negative as of Saturday morning. My results came in the next day and is also negative.

My father was an officer in the Army. He took a lot of pride in that, considering he enlisted. He once told me about the obligation of being in charge and in care of others and how he was responsible for his men’s needs first then his own, such as always allowing them to eat first. That came to mind as I read this article.

White House Staffers Among the First to Receive COVID-19 Vaccine: Report

The top staffers of the Trump administration have abetted the president’s coronavirus misinformation campaign — nearly a year long now — to minimize the threat of a pandemic that has killed nearly 300,000 Americans. As a reward, they will be among the first in line to receive the first doses of the coronavirus vaccine.

On Sunday, the New York Times reported that White House staff members, including chief of staff Mark Meadows, have been informed that they will soon receive vaccine shots. The political appointees will join high-risk, frontline medical workers as some of the first Americans to get doses of the vaccine produced by Pfizer, which was approved for emergency-use authorization on December 11. It’s not yet known how many doses will be sent to 1600 Pennsylvania, though some officials told the paper that they were concerned that it may send the wrong message if they receive some of the first shots in the elaborate drive to vaccinate the nation.


While this is a pretty low class move, I sorta respect their planning.

Paolo Rossi: Italian World Cup hero’s home burgled during funeral – The home of Italy’s 1982 World Cup hero Paolo Rossi was burgled during his funeral service on Saturday, local reports say.

‘So Much For the Party of Lincoln’: Head of Texas GOP Calls For State to Secede From the Union Following SCOTUS Loss

I’d like to think an overwhelming majority of Texas Republicans don’t condone the words of Allen West, but I haven’t heard much rebuttal.

MAGA protesters damage historic Black church in DC

Cannibal sandwich scare: Wisconsin officials urge families to pass on holiday tradition of eating raw meat

Meet The Fiskers, The Billionaire Power Couple Taking On Tesla

Famed car designer Henrik Fisker is mounting a comeback seven years after his pioneering electric vehicle company collapsed. This time he has a secret weapon: Geeta Gupta-Fisker, his cofounder, CFO–and wife.

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